waiting/lost/confused/sigh..

wel first of all..iwl give ya the happy news....
today is JEnnie's 16ht birthday!! ^-^ HAPPY sWEEET 16TH jenJEn^^
haha okok...hrm
wel now hte depressing boring all news..that im sure everyone is probably sick and tired of listening to ...
wel i cant help it ok..it been bothering me for some time now..and i need to let it out...some way or another...so if u dun wana listen close this window!! lol...>.<" hrm newasie, i feel ....like within me..ther is something missing..?! o_O^^ ther is a deeeep, dark, empty hole that i hav fallen into and im lost....there is no wher to hold on to and nothing to lead me ...>.<" im pretty much juz aimlessly wandering around this stoopid hole..waitng for an answer....a sign...somethink to show me wher to turn!! my emotions and feelings are floating around this hole and mai head.... it doesnt fit together...everything is juz mixed up and confused..... im lost....and i duno wher to turn!! im stuk at one point where i need to decide wher to turn...but i cant do it on my own..and i need to kno how...this one...one certain person....feels for me....><" i need to kno how he feels and if he cares still......... iv been gettn soo much counselling wit mai fwens..haha they telln me wut to do, givn me advise..and most of all listening and putting up wit mai crap!! i kno it been v boring and most of u are sick of it alreadi..pFt u kno hu u are..biatchh!! ahAHa =Pp soo insensitive! rofl...it kOol* hrm wel...i wana say thank u to all of u hu been listening to me....and thankz fo the counselling..!!! u kno hu u are! hehe ^_^ i tink u need to counsell mai bF haha and make a boook!! lol =P yer newasie...hrmm right now im hanging onto nothing coz i got no lead to which way imma fall.....in or out... of...love?..lust? ..i duno wut im feeling...>.<" they say u need time to make a relationship work..so ..im waiting..and i would reali want it to work.....but i need a sign......and maybe..hrm time will make things work out..coz it hard to find that feeling..of love!? altho i hav never felt it bfo...it sounds like one of the besest feeelings inda world..but then one moment u mai feel on the top of the worlD...and then the next u feel like nothing...at the bottom~~sunken like an anchor?! *desciptive words* lol..>.<" yer my heart...it hurts......it feels heavy......like it is drowned in my tears....=/ ther been too much pain involved in loving....and it hurts deep inside.... everytime it beats...i feel the slow...painful thumpz...... they are heavy and everything feels lost and empty... breathing in.....into that deep dark hole.....it feels like it can go on forever.....down and down.......down to somewher..? i duno wher.....it juz a long fall.......to something that the future holds... bleh i duno wut im talkn abt now...>.<" im reali lost...
aiyah...
waiting.............